Why it’s Not Hard to Love February

By now you know that I don’t like the winter and that I’m not a huge fan of Mondays or my survival job.

So I am thrilled to share with you about something that I love for real.

I love February and I am so excited that it’s here.

There’s so much that I love about February.

The holidays are fully behind us. I don’t know about you, but for me, the holiday season is a lot. I spent January winding down and I know that I started working myself up about the holidays back in October.

I love that at 5 pm it is not as dark as it would be in the middle of the night. One thing I hate about the winter is how dark it is when I leave work. But now, every day the evenings are getting a little bit brighter and brighter. I need a little light at the end of the day in order to be motivated to something other than just attaching my butt to my couch watching unsatisfying television while drinking lots of (satisfying) wine. The days are getting slightly longer day by day, and I love it so much.

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The dread is becoming undeniable.

I’ve done some reflecting and I have to face the fact that I need to make some changes.

The beginning of the new year is the perfect time to reflect on where we are and where we want to be.

I love the sense of renewal and the feeling of possibility the New Year represents.

But I have to admit that I don’t love facing the dread that has been building up inside of me.

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Getting my lifestyle in order

The other day I realized that I needed to get my lifestyle in order.

I had been feeling out of sorts and blaming all external events. The holidays, Monday, commuting. Nothing escaped my scorn and ire. But one morning I noticed that I had hit the snooze button for two hours.

And that was how I knew.

It’s me.

I didn’t feel rested at all and before I even sat up and put my feet on the floor, I was annoyed that I was going to be very late to work.


I have to leave home at 7:45 to get to work on time and I need two hours to get ready so I set my alarm clock for 5:45. Normally when my alarm goes off, I like to hit the snooze button several times. I recognize how ridiculously unsustainable that type of morning routine is and so I’ve decided to get it together.

I believe that each new day is a new chance and the morning time is when our actions can set the tone for the day. I feel like I am winning and like I’m in control of my life when I get up in time to complete my morning rituals without being late to work. The aspects of my commute to work that annoy me, annoy me less on successful mornings.

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Holiday Season

As a child holidays were fun.

I loved nothing more than visiting my aunts homes and playing with my cousins. I loved who my mom became when she was around her sisters My aunts and my mom seemed happy to be together. I would see my mother grinning and laughing loud.

But when family gatherings became a place to rank and rate and compare I started feeling less and less interested in being involved in family holiday gatherings.

Gatherings some feel obligated to host, and some folks feels forced to attend.

Not only are they difficult to endure, but the holidays are also like a bridge between the fall to the worst part of the winter.

The family holiday events I’ve attended are nothing at all like the idyllic ones I see on TV.

I’m sure no one’s holiday gathering is at all like how it is on TV. Or maybe it is, there’s lots going on TV nowadays.

My Sagittarius birthday is nestled in between Thanksgiving and Christmas, so the holidays are extra hard for me.

Because birthdays and holidays are pressure-filled events.

I get to get it all over with at the same time of the year, so I guess there’s that to be grateful for.

During the late fall early winter, I feel all this pressure.

Real or imaginary, I feel it.

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Winter is coming

I feel like a character from Game of Thrones, crying that winter is coming.

I spent most of October being sad that the summer is over. What I learned about myself is that I take too long to do things. I should have stopped mourning the end of Summer in September.

Although Fall does give me a feeling of hopefulness and optimism, I usually ignore that and focus my energy thinking of all the things I hate about the winter.

But I recently decided to become the type of person who does not waste energy in worry about things she can’t control.

And the weather and seasons changing is not in my control.

I decided this year to use my energy to think about how I can maybe have a better winter.

The things that bother me about the fall and winter season are always the same. My clothes don’t seem to fit right I’m always cold, and my nose is runny.

My hope is that focusing on what I have control over will allow me to be in a less negative state and I can prepare for a more comfortable winter.

It seems obvious that I should have a warm coat and a scarf and hat and gloves every winter. After all, I have dealt with winter my entire life. But although I should know these things, there are some recent winters I can remember being uncomfortable all winter because I didn’t get a much-needed winter essential.

This time, I’m going to make sure to check that my coats and jackets aren’t in need of cleaning or fixing and that I have a hat and scarf and gloves that I will wear.

Another thing that happens is that my clothes don’t ever seem to fit right during the winter.

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