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Avoidance

May 9, 2016
so many choices

It has been a long time since I last posted, about three months.

It is weird how my days feel slow but still it seems like time goes by quickly.

Today I thought to myself; I have avoided posting long enough. I decided I would make today the day I get started blogging again.

I have this way of avoiding things.

Avoiding posting reminds me of all the things that I believe I really want to do.

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Why it’s Not Hard to Love February

February 9, 2016

By now you know that I don’t like the winter and that I’m not a huge fan of Mondays or my survival job.

So I am thrilled to share with you about something that I love for real.

I love February and I am so excited that it’s here.

There’s so much that I love about February.

The holidays are fully behind us. I don’t know about you, but for me, the holiday season is a lot. I spent January winding down and I know that I started working myself up about the holidays back in October.

I love that at 5 pm it is not as dark as it would be in the middle of the night. One thing I hate about the winter is how dark it is when I leave work. But now, every day the evenings are getting a little bit brighter and brighter. I need a little light at the end of the day in order to be motivated to something other than just attaching my butt to my couch watching unsatisfying television while drinking lots of (satisfying) wine. The days are getting slightly longer day by day, and I love it so much. Continue Reading…

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Dread

January 19, 2016

The dread is becoming undeniable.

I’ve done some reflecting and I have to face the fact that I need to make some changes.

The beginning of the new year is the perfect time to reflect on where we are and where we want to be.

I love the sense of renewal and the feeling of possibility the New Year represents.

But I have to admit that I don’t love facing the dread that has been building up inside of me.

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Getting my lifestyle in order

January 5, 2016

The other day I realized that I needed to get my lifestyle in order.

I had been feeling out of sorts and blaming all external events. The holidays, Monday, commuting. Nothing escaped my scorn and ire. But one morning I noticed that I had hit the snooze button for two hours.

And that was how I knew.

It’s me.

I didn’t feel rested at all and before I even sat up and put my feet on the floor, I was annoyed that I was going to be very late to work.

Again.

I have to leave home at 7:45 to get to work on time and I need two hours to get ready so I set my alarm clock for 5:45. Normally when my alarm goes off, I like to hit the snooze button several times. I recognize how ridiculously unsustainable that type of morning routine is and so I’ve decided to get it together.

I believe that each new day is a new chance and the morning time is when our actions can set the tone for the day. I feel like I am winning and like I’m in control of my life when I get up in time to complete my morning rituals without being late to work. The aspects of my commute to work that annoy me, annoy me less on successful mornings. Continue Reading…

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Holiday Season

November 25, 2015

As a child holidays were fun.

I loved nothing more than visiting my aunts homes and playing with my cousins. I loved who my mom became when she was around her sisters My aunts and my mom seemed happy to be together. I would see my mother grinning and laughing loud.

But when family gatherings became a place to rank and rate and compare I started feeling less and less interested in being involved in family holiday gatherings.

Gatherings some feel obligated to host, and some folks feels forced to attend.

Not only are they difficult to endure, but the holidays are also like a bridge between the fall to the worst part of the winter.

The family holiday events I’ve attended are nothing at all like the idyllic ones I see on TV.

I’m sure no one’s holiday gathering is at all like how it is on TV. Or maybe it is, there’s lots going on TV nowadays.

My Sagittarius birthday is nestled in between Thanksgiving and Christmas, so the holidays are extra hard for me.

Because birthdays and holidays are pressure-filled events.

I get to get it all over with at the same time of the year, so I guess there’s that to be grateful for.

During the late fall early winter, I feel all this pressure.

Real or imaginary, I feel it. Continue Reading…

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