The other day I realized that I needed to get my lifestyle in order.
I had been feeling out of sorts and blaming all external events. The holidays, Monday, commuting. Nothing escaped my scorn and ire. But one morning I noticed that I had hit the snooze button for two hours.
And that was how I knew.
I didn’t feel rested at all and before I even sat up and put my feet on the floor, I was annoyed that I was going to be very late to work.
I have to leave home at 7:45 to get to work on time and I need two hours to get ready so I set my alarm clock for 5:45. Normally when my alarm goes off, I like to hit the snooze button several times. I recognize how ridiculously unsustainable that type of morning routine is and so I’ve decided to get it together.
I believe that each new day is a new chance and the morning time is when our actions can set the tone for the day. I feel like I am winning and like I’m in control of my life when I get up in time to complete my morning rituals without being late to work. The aspects of my commute to work that annoy me, annoy me less on successful mornings.
It hasn’t escaped my notice that the only time I find myself snoozing for hours and reluctant to get out of bed is when I have to go to work.
In the morning, bad Shuba is in charge, not rational Shuba, who knows that she needs two hours to get ready for work. Bad Shuba is fully out of control and totally in charge when the first alarm goes off, and she thinks that she knows the way to get ready in less time than usual.
No good ever comes from the bad me being in charge. There is no real way that I can get ready in less time and so I end up being extremely late to work way too often.
Part of me thinks that if I want to sleep later in the morning, I have to find a way to have a shorter morning routine.
But my morning routine makes me feel real good and the amount of time that it takes to get to work is not something that I can change.
The rest of me knows that if I truly want to get my life in order, I have to figure out what I can do to stop dreading going to work so much.
Saying that I need to get my lifestyle in order may sound dramatic. But I think I need to be a bit dramatic to create a sense of urgency for myself. I know myself and I can spin out of control if I neglect the things I should be focusing on.
I don’t want to take anything for granted and I don’t want to overlook the hidden messages in my behavior. When I have a habit that isn’t working for me and I can’t seem to stop it, I know it’s something I need to pay attention to.
Getting up on time so that I can have a great morning is something that I do for me. And it sets the tone for my entire day.
A morning routine and the way it improves the quality of life is amazing in its simplicity. It’s magical how the fact that I am heading to work doesn’t even matter.
On the days that I snooze for hours and end up being recklessly late to work, I feel awful.
By not allowing myself to snooze and sleep in on work mornings, I am remembering to do what is right for me.
Taking care of the little things and feeling good about it leads to more positive energy to tackle the big things like, in my case, why do I dread my job so much and what can I do about it.
It sounds so simple, doing what’s right for us, but simple isn’t always easier.